Song of the Day: Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
So as I’m writing this blog, I’ve realized that my summer is almost halfway over with. For me it is betwixt and between, because the last week of July, and the first week of August, I’ll be packing up all my stuff and then moving.
There is some ambivalence when it comes to me moving. I don’t want to leave all my friends, even though I know I’ll make new ones, and I’m used to my school’s schedule, but I don’t like this hick town, and I hate that there’s nothing to do around here. You have to drive an hour just to get to a mall, 30 minutes to get to the movies, and fifteen minutes to get to school. I’m excited about moving back to Illinois, but I’m not so such that moving back with my brothers is such a good idea.
The past couple of months, three of my older brothers have come to visit, and I’ve realized a few things just by being extrospective and observing the situations. 1) I’m immensely elitist when it comes to my brothers, and 2) I feel like crap around them. The latter is because it seems like I have nothing in common with them. We can’t hang out because I don’t drink or smoke, and when they’re sober, I have nothing in common with them. It really sucks, and I feel extremely alienated whenever I’m around them. Plus, like clockwork, the night before all three of them left (they were here at two separate times), we got into a cussing match and didn’t talk the rest of the night. So, being on bad terms with them won’t help when I move to where I’m going to be around them all the time.
Cody
P.S.- The song of the day is because I’m missing the beach so much right now. If I had money, I’d drive myself to the beach, considering I won’t see again for a long time after we move. Plus, it’s only three hours away.
Moving back for junior year? When did you move down to NC? It’s such a hard thing…to leave friends behind. Especially when you’re in for a major ass-kicking school year – you’re gonna want some steady friends to keep your head above the water. -_-
I’m sorry about your relationship with your brothers. But it sounds like you have your head screwed on much tighter than them so just steel yourself and know you’ll come out better in the end.
But shit, that’s a seriously ouch social life you’ve got down there. 30 minutes to get to the movies, an hour to the mall? Grr where’s the escape hatch?!
Actually, we decided recently that we aren’t moving! So I’m staying in North Carolina. But all my friends changed schools. XP.
My brothers are… well, I help but love them, but I also hate them a lot.
There is no escape hatch. Except school. Which I love! Yeah, I live 15 minutes away from school too. Theres nothing here at all. XP